The first week of classes behind me, and still in a more than a bit of a shock.
A couple of months ago I innocently went to student services to snoop around and familiarize myself with the environment of this institution. Before I knew what I was doing, I registered for 2 summer courses. Not the best way to ease in, but , I figured I might as well. A day into each of these classes I realized the extent of kaka I’m in. My inner superwoman wakes up here, and tells me that I’m not dropping any classes, and that I’m going to just figure it out.
I’m super excited about all everything new I will be encountering, learning, making.
I keep in mind a couple of brilliant insights my weaving instructor at Cap, Ruth Scheuing, shared with me:
1) When you have less to do, sometimes you just do less
2) You are in art school to learn, explore and stretch, you are not expected to create your most brilliant work
I have been doing less for a couple of months now and am ready to stop.
Looking forward to all.
Wow, those word really strike home with me. It makes me feel more confident in myself, an let me say i dont really have much of it to begin with.
There always this fear or dread i have whenever i think about my grad film. Like as though it is supposed to be the cumulation and expression of all the knowledge i have gain in my last 10 or so years, but it isn’t really. I will try to heed those words and just learn, explore and stretch.
Oh and don’t forget to have fun doing so!
I know, it is like the pressure valve has released. One can just be oneself, without that critical part of the brains screaming judgments.
It is so easy to judge and dismiss, and this offers a more wholesome way of harnessing the creative force within. Allowing it to evolve.
I try to think of that advice every time I need to give myself acceptance and empathy.